Music is My Refuge

“Music was my refuge. I could crawl into the space between the notes and curl my back to loneliness.” This quote by Maya Angelou pretty much sums up my life. It's not that my life is terrible and music is the only thing I have or something like that, because I'm a lucky person and have a lot to be thankful for, but this quote represents how music has never ceased to lead me through my life and help me through both the hard times and the easy times.

When most people think of me, they think of music. I used to hate that. I wanted to be recognized by my personality or my traits, not just something I liked to do, but then I realized that music is all of that and more. It ties into everything that is important to me. Trust me, there are so many things that I could tell you about myself, but I’ve chosen music because it ties everything about me together. There are things in my life that I feel embody Maya Angelou’s quote more than others. These things are my experience in the church choir and my way of life relating to music.

The people in the choir are some of the most talented musicians I have met in my life. This is especially so because they are just children, with the exception of the adult choir. Every winter, we sing Handel’s Messiah. We also travel to places like New York, England, and Ireland to sing at different cathedrals. While these are amazing experiences ; what most people would be the most interested in, what I love most is the music we sing every Sunday. Most church music has a reputation for being boring, but the music we sing is the exact opposite. While I'm singing this music, I am in complete awe at the amazing power of God’s grace and love. It inspires me to be a better and more loyal Christian.

When asked, most members of the Trinity Cathedral Girls Choir would say that the best thing about the choir is how close we are with each other. We often say that anyone can walk into the choir room after having the worst day, and walk out feeling happier and more relaxed. When I walk in to choir, I immediately feel more at home and relaxed than I do anywhere else. When I am with these people and singing, I don't have to worry about homework, social drama, whether I'm pretty or not, or anything else in my life, because I know that these people love me for who I am and I work hard on reading the music and singing it from the deepest part of my heart to convey its true meaning. At times like these, music is definitely my refuge.

Sometimes during church while we're singing, I have what I like to call a “God moment,” which I think a lot of people have. During these times, I can almost see God sitting in the stained glass window in the back of the church, watching over the congregation, and I can feel him all around us. These are the times when I feel the closest to God, and I don't think it's a coincidence that they always happen when I'm singing.

Music is not just something that I like to do. It has taught me many things and influenced my personality, outlook on life, and how I see myself and others in many ways. Although it is not the only thing I want to be known for, it ties into everything, but not all, of the things that are important to me. Music is my refuge...what is yours?

-Written by Mills Owen, a member of the Trinity Cathedral Girls Choir